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So, I had some time on my hands today and I decided that I wanted to make a pillow. After all, pillows are the easiest things to make. But, I was lazy and I didn't have the energy to sit and sew. So, I stapled the pillow together. That's right...STAPLED! It sounds freaky but it's not.

The key is leave enough margin between the staple and the fold so that when you fold it out again, you won't feel the staples. Now it's not the perfect pillow, but nevertheless, it took 15 minutes to make and I love it. Why? Because I made it hehe.

How to make a pillow in 15 minutes.

Necessary materials: fabric, pillows, or any other stuffing of your choice. I have seen others stuff old clothes in there, but I don't know how comforable that is.

Making the Pillow:

A part of my treatment is eating 50g of cortison once a day. Taking cortison for a long time can have a lot of side effects on your body. The cortison increases your insuline and therefore increases your appetite. Your body also tends to hoard water. Now, in order to avoid an excessive weight gain during this time is to eat small portions but often. So perhaps 6 small meals a day. Another important thing is to exclude carbohydrates or any foods that contain complex polysaccharides which are often the villains in weight gain, especially in combination with medications such as cortison.

So, basically I have to live on proteins and vegetables. That's fine with me. I would rather live off that than gain a million kg. I have already developed a moon face and I can feel my body being bloated. Even though eating this food will probably not make me lose weight, I will at least maintain my weight, or limit the weight gain to a minimum.

Don't you just love cortinson. BASTARD!!!

/H

...no answers. This is what silence feels like. 

Good night.

/H

...with one daughter doing chemotherapy and the other daughter in Lybia in the middle of a warzone. Sorry!!! But don't worry, we'll make it through, and we'll make it up to you ;)

and this is how I feel!!

I have no problems making phone calls to authorities, in fact, I quite enjoy pointing out their mistakes, inconsistences, and bullshit that makes no logical sense whatsoever. But what I cannot STAND is the endless waiting on the phone..."You are number 3 in line..." number 3 in line basically means they're on a coffee break and cannot be asked to answer the phone right now. Well...that's the story I've construced in my head anyway. But the best part is...the glory of the story is waiting in line for about 30 minutes only to find out I should have been waiting in another phone cew half an hour ago before their office closed. Alternative scenario: you get to them but the person in question has NO idea how to handle anything...and ends up having ME do all the work. Makes you want to break out in song don't you think?

I'm not pissed off though...just tempted...very very...tempted!!!

/H

For the past 2 hours I've been drowning in papers, trying to figure out what's what. Receipts, forms to fill in, letters to write, days to figure out, papers to be signed, sealed and delivered tomorrow. Man oh man, I can't believe though that I managed to fix it all in two hours. I'll tell you now, it's not easy being on long-term sick leave. There's so much administrative work involved you wouldn't believe. But I did it, FINALLY!! After what seems to have been a billion phone calls and a sea of information to take in, I think I'm ready to print some papers and send everything off to everyone. Hopefully this will be the last of it. Fingers crossed though that everything's right!!!

Tonight was a pleasant evening though. My oldest and best friend and her fiance came over and we sat for a couple of hours talking about their wedding. We had a LOT of laughs which was a nice break of the day. Then I skyped with G in London, a few more hilarious laughs there. It's always nice to end the day with laughing...at anything and everything. Don't end the day with admin work, or you might end up looking like this:

It's taken me a while to land to say the least. So much...soooooooo much keeps happening. A rollercoaster ride is a swing in the park in comparison. So many authorities to contact, so much paperwork, so many things to deal with, and all at once for that matter. On top of that my medication has got me speeded up and I keep forgetting things because for every thought I have, a hundered more expload in my head. I know I know, anyone reading this and knows me might raise an eyebrow or two and think there's no difference between pre-treatment Hebs, and during-treatment Hebs. But I know ME, and I can feel the intensity of my thoughts, they're bouncing off the linings of my brain. I'm pretty sure my neurostransmitters are travelling at the speed of light at the moment...at least that's how I feel.

So, to solve this problem. I've developed a routine that I only began implementing today.

• I get up at around 7.30-8.00 (this is quite late for me, but then again, I'm suppose to be healing my body, not depriving it of well-needed sleep.)
• Take a shower and get dressed.
• Cup of coffee/tea, breakfast, take my medications, read the news.
• I wrote a "To-Do" list the night before of what I want to do today (or what I think I want to do ;)
• The list is divided in two parts: Morning (9-12), and Afternoon (13-17).
• Mornings are high-priority things that need to get done, and afternoons are for the rest of the things I want to do.
• Evenings are open for anything that I feel like doing. Cook, read, paint, watch movies, friends come over, or even work if I feel up for it.
• Thursdays are treatment days so the schedule will look different.
• I will also have meetings with the physiotherapist that will help me work out my body to the best of my ability during treatment. I need to prevent physical weakness and more health problems. So when that happens, I will be incorporating workouts into my schedule.

...and counting. Not feeling nervous at all anymore. Just want to get it out of the way. I thought about it today, but not in a bad way. I spoke to the doctor and he said that it has infiltrated my small intestine, but not severely. It doesn't matter anyway. I'm starting chemo on Thursday so what the hell. I'm not worried. I didn't really react. 

He also discussed with the orthepedists about the possibility of doing an operation. They said that they would gladly do one. Whatever that means?! But that the final word was up to me. My doctor recommended not to do it unless I snap in half (HAHA...LAUGH...it's funny...for now!!) He said that having this operation (a rather big procedure to stablize my hip) would also mean a high risk for infection because I won't have much of an immune system. I'll have to think about that one, but for now I'm leaning towards not having one. I just want to wait and see how well I respond to treatment.

in about 24 hours I have something fabulous to look forward to. N is coming to town to stay with me. I want to break out in song. But I can't sing haha. 

/H

A couple of friends asked me on FB how to make comments in the blog (for those who don't understand Swedish). At the end of each section, there's a row with the date, the category, and "Kommentarer". Click on this, it means "comments." Voila...you can comment.

My cold continues. But not for very long hopefully. My personal remedy is: lemon, vinegar, and garlic. Why?

Lemon: Vitamin C has been shown to boost the immune system. When more white blood cells are present to fight infection, the life of the offending virus is cut short. Lemon juice also decreases the toxicity of the virus in the body. Your entire body won’t be wracked with pain and suffering like it is when the cold is untreated. In effect, lemon juice shortens the duration of the cold. (copied and pasted)

Vinegar: If you have a congested chest (which I have) the vinegar helps clear this. You can either inhale it in steamed water or mix it together with the ingredients I take. Your body also becomes more alkanalized (if that's a word) when you're sick. Vinegar helps revert this process.

Garlic: In general antibiotics are ineffective against viral infections of the sort that cause most colds and flu. Fortunately garlic isn't "just" an antibiotic. As well as the powerful antibacterial allicin, garlic produces a number of other potentially beneficial compounds. Scientific research has also shown that people taking garlic can suffer less from colds than a control group. There is also plentiful anecdotal evidence that taking large amounts of garlic at the onset of a cold can reduce the time taken to recover. (copied and pasted)

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/H

I have a cold. I'm caughing my pretty little lungs out. I can't breathe through my snout. Luckily, I don't have a fever. I think my body is just trying to get rid of the virus.

It's so weird. I haven't had a cold in over a year and a half now. I've had migranes, stomach aches, and very mild things. But I haven't been "sick" in ages. Last BAD thing that happened to me was food poisoning last summer. That was HORRIBLE!!

I rarely get sick actually. OH WAIT!!! I don't get sick. I GET LCH!!!! MUUUUUAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! C'mon, if I'm going to be sick I might as well go all out. I don't just accept a cold or some bullshit virus, that's too weak for me...I need a challenge. I need something to FIGHT!!! Something unusual. Something not even the doctors have heard of. That's so typical me hahaha. (It's OK...we can joke about it...I do..ALL THE TIME!!!!)